She was talking to her mom on the phone. I was making my weekly To Do list.
3. Clean out the bottom drawer of the refrigerator.
4. Buy more Simple Green.
5. Submit the book proposal.
6. Balance the checking account.
“So, Mom,” she said into the cell phone, “the house I’m living in is on a street with trees on it. And it’s a lot of trees. And the house is short. And the house is pink.”
I chuckled silently, and waited for her to get off of the phone. “Ladybug, you are so silly! Our house isn’t pink.”
“Yes it is.”
“Hmm… you know, Sweetie, maybe we should get your eyes checked.”
I quickly redirected the conversation and we moved on to another topic. Later that night, I alerted Toby to my concern. “I think Ladybug might be colorblind. Earlier this morning, she told her mom that our house was pink!”
“That’s crazy,” he said.
“I know, right!”
“It’s definitely not pink! It’s more like mauve.”
I was appalled. Two people in our household are colorblind? What are the odds of that?
Quickly, I began to inform him that the house used to be yellow. However, my grandmother had it repainted and now it was a yellowish/tan. He balked at my historical info, and assured me that presently the house was undeniably, unequivocally mauve.
The next morning, as I was pulling into our driveway, I closed my eyes to clear my head of all memories and assumptions of our home. As I reopened my eyes and mind, I sat stunned in my car. Before me stood a small, dreary home with tiny windows, a flat roof, and a lopsided chimney.
And it was mauve. Pinkish/mauve.
Apart from the revelation that I have a ridiculous looking home, I was struck by the understanding of how many times I’ve allowed my past history to dictate my perception of the present.
Whether in a relationship, an opportunity, or a belief, our past is often the foundation for how we interpret new experiences in our lives. While this method of processing is healthy and protective in many ways, it can also hinder our ability to accept change and revelation.
I Corinthians 13:12 says,
“We don’t yet see things clearly. We’re squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won’t be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We’ll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!” (The Message)
Often, in the midst of our personal life, the biggest hindrance to our growth is our recollection of the past. Whether it is a memory of our past deeds, our previous understanding of who we are, or our assumptions of our lives, we can be the biggest block of grace and goodness in our lives.
As we move forward toward the hope life offers, we can begin to know ourselves and experience our world in new and fresh ways apart from preconceived ideas. Challenge yourself to allow surprises of goodness to blow the walls away from your carefully constructed ideas and surge through your life in completely reviving and rejuvenating explosions of love.
In the meantime… I’m heading off to repaint my house.
Has your past belief of who you are hindered who you were designed to be?